goodbye tonight

tonight. i felt stronger. i thought about our situation. i thought about how we've been lately. i thought about how we've managed to maintain a level of intimacy. how we can smile now when we look at each other. how we can sit still and not say anything and not feel wierd. how we can be happy when we have each other around. how your eyes are still so bright. im happy. because the lights are still on. and i havent been deemed a bad agonizing memory yet.